My Ah-Ma
I dedicate this blog entry to my beloved grandmother whom just found peace in heaven.
It’s a Saturday and the day of my Japanese Intermediate level 1 exams. During the oral test, I received a call from my sister, all of a sudden, I don’t even know how to respond anymore…
My grandmother has just passed away.
Never the less, I continued the exams with a really heavy heart and after the exams i rushed back home and travel to penang with my family to pay her our last respect. Seeing her corpse in the coffin makes me sad and how much I really wanted to tell her how sorry I am for not being able to spend more time with her.
My ah ma, like many mainlanders in the olden days travels to south east asia side to find a better living. After married my ah gong ( who sold salty duck egg 15 years ago) they settled down in Penang. During the older days , they were selling chow kuey teow as a living and from what I heard from my cousins, no matter how good the chow kuey teow that are selling here now, no one still can beats the uniqueness of ah gong chow kuey teow, well once again I’m too young to remember.
I remembered how sad ah ma was when my ah gong sold the salty eggs and I’m somehow relief for now that both em can finally meet in after separated for 15 years.
Anyway, two months ago ah ma feel from the stairs and broke her bone. she was admitted to hospital and on the day she was supposed to leave, something happened to her internal organs and was once again admitted. This time the doctor said that her internal organs were all spoiled and beyond cured. Nevertheless, ah ma suffer a grieve pain for her remaining two months.
I wasn’t there for her… 
When ah ma was living with us in KL, I have a feeling she was bored as there’s no one here who can really talked to her due to communication problems, my ah ma speaks hokkien and I speak very little hokkien. So couldn’t really talk to her. Ah ma’s favorite pass time was watching TV and she’s a big fan of Bollywood films. Each time she would ask me turned on “san hou dai” (TV3) for her and she would sit in the couch for hours to watch her favorite Bollywood films. It’s a simple lifestyle, but she’s happy to be with us as one family.
If given another chance, I would learn hokkien just to talk to my ah ma and to spend more time with her.
In the end, I wish ah ma to find eternal peace in after life where she be free from all sufferings.
